I. i am a ____
II. i love doing things just cause i like to
III. blablablablab
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26 September, 2008Y
Another thursday pass by again yet i cannot get enough of those thursdays if only every other day was a thursday
the people that i meet up with here are not ordinary they bring my life to seem like the fairytale this blog of mine i make it that way too but as many would noe life is never without it's dark alleys where even the light of eurphoria would not light it up any most depressing poem of a suicide would not describe it at best where homicide i say can be a mercy death...
haiz you'd probably wonder why this dark entry a thorn amongst the roses of my beautiful happy entries....
well... thats y i wished every other day i wish it were a thursday where my deepest darkest secret can be told where upon confiding judgement will be far from it where my life has been a erbal diary to these two people i cherish who can bring the best out of me when i'm down and out ice and is their names are
it is thanks to them i see the true light in him in rudi it is to their credit that i have come out of the alleys facing my fears facing what i call my years of folly years of blindness years of co-dependency where when i fell no safety net was holding me
you would be confused now aren't i a happy person my god anisah u seemed such a jolly person quiet at times pondering but we nvr seem to gt tt part but jolly at best at most times.....
well i have come a long way to this haha i remember in my old days where my phrase for the day was always "i hide my sadness, i noe thats bad"
see guys... My Golden Rule when i started blogging was NVR WRITE ABOUT ANYTHING I HATE one- shorter miserable life two-i do not ever want to regret saying things i might find too trivial to hurt others three-happy things means happy thought and hopefully meaning wishing away bad thought, bad memories
let them talk let them think of me as such what's clear is my bestfriends they know god sees it all i pray to you i pray that my life will stay this enlightened as i see every human being from all walks of life of all kinds
if only they knew if only they knew tapi apakn daya hanya tuhan maha mengetahui
PAIN TO ME IS LIKE BITTER CHOCOLATE IT'S BITTER ITS AN AQUIRED TASTE YET ITS ADDICTIVE AND IT'S KNOWN TO BE GOOD FOR THE HEART
i guess i would have to say if i hadn't suffered how else would i have seen that he's the ONE? the one who would forgive me more than humanly possible? walk me through that dark alley to see it for myself set aside his heart felt pain this man this man i took to be a fool but i now see i was the fool not to see the man he all along was that bitter chocolate was good but nevertheless should not take too much of it it was he who told me my love.... it'll spoil the your taste your hunger for other things in life
now that my years of folly and deceptions... seen all sort of humans.... let them be let them be no that i have found you my love. one i now pray let us be as one forever i'l aniting for u i'll be cooking for u this coming raye even my mum teases me hehe i guess she js waiting to see you this raye.. hehe so is you parents? hehe i tink she'll be monitering remember how she scolded me for taking your chicken? hehe lets get her scolding!!! muacks!!
